2013

What?
2013?
I thought the world was supposed to end.

Well now that we've all made it here, here's what's been happening:

• I made it through finals and 4.0'd the quarter. What a relief. The devious side of me is really looking forward to the meeting with my advisor I'm required to have because she told me that running start students don't know what they're in for when they get to "real college". Haha.
• I went on a cruise with my family and Sarah, and spent Christmas in New Orleans. 
• I've gone back to knitting way too much, but I'm learning all kinds of different techniques and whatnot and it's really neat in a old lady cool kind of way. 
• I'm back in Bellingham, spending my last week of break trying to form habits for the new year that I really hope I stick to.

So about that cruise...

Here are the photos: 

Day 1: lots of airports and traveling, but we finally made it to New Orleans!

They have some pretty cool houses there, I wanted one.

Day 2: cruise time! cruise time!

We had some fun in the cabin, haha.

Day 3: first day at sea

Once you go balcony, you don't go back!

<3

Titanic moment!

We enjoy ourselves, we really do.

ADORABLE. :)

All dressed up for dinner.

YUM, CHOCOLATE.

Day 4: Costa Maya, Mexico

Someone live here with me.

Sittin' on the Mayan Ruins.

Hey look at my new house!

Dad: "I want some candid shots of me!"

Me: *click click click click click*

Dad: *glare*

Hehe...

It was hottt.

Guysssss, these stairs are hardddd.

Haha.

We made it to the top!

Bahaha.

"Authentic" Mexican food? 

I think not.

Day 5: "Belize it or not, we're in Belize!"

Some kids playing music on the street.

This is one of those candid photos that you just love forever and ever and one day show your grandkids and say, "Yep, that's what happens when you and your best friend are in another country together!"

Adios, Belize!

Our cute elephants waiting for us when we returned!

Uhm... yes. This is pretty accurate. 

Day 6: Roatan, Honduras

:D

Street artist

It was gorgeous.

BEACH.

<3

Our new monkey friend!

Day 7: Cozumel, Mexico

We went swimming with some dolphins.

I loved them.

Day 8: back at sea

This was the top deck.

My fiance ;)

We bonded over my spiderman shirt.

What more could a girl ask for? 

Goodbye, gorgeous sunsets.

Day 9: back in New Orleans!

Cafe Du Monde

French Market shopping

My family is the best.

Street musicians EVERYWHERE. 

It was great :)

Day 10: New Orleans 

The cool mask my mom bought

Trying some Po-Boys

The city was beautiful

We visited a cemetary

Human totem pole!

Eatin' gator!

Day 11: Christmas in New Orleans!

Rain, rain, go away...

There was a really cool lightning storm :)

Day 12: home sweet home

So that sums it up!

Hope you enjoy the pictures.

There are more on facebook. 

And even more on my computer. 

Happy New Year!

blast from the past

"The truth is, I just feel lost. It's like I'm drowning in monotony, in a body of water called "my life," and there is nothing I can do because I've already been pulled under. I'm just waiting for the end."

I wrote that over a year ago in regards to leaving for college and wondering what in the world I'm doing with my life. So much in my life has changed since then, but I still feel kind of the same. I have an infinite amount of questions going through my head all the time but I never have any answers. I let "what ifs" dictate my life and I over-think everything. I spend my free time studying, babysitting, watching movies. I'm boring. 

And don't get me wrong, I like who I am. I just feel like there are so many things I could be doing but at some point I decided being responsible is more important than being spontaneous or crazy or daring. The people I used to do the most ridiculous things around aren't a part of my everyday life anymore. I look back on those memories and wonder what happened and I just feel old. I'm only 19. This shouldn't be happening yet! 

The problem is I don't have a way out. It's so hard to change and I don't know how to make it happen. I guess I'm stuck here. 

Beyond that, I'm going a little crazy with other things in my life. I'm not really in a position to broadcast those issues on the internet so I'll just say that those of you who need to know already do, and everyone else can just send me happy thoughts or positive energy or whatever you're into and call it good!

"On top of everything, I just wish someone could tell me to stop worrying.
And that I'd be able to listen."